Friday, 29 March 2019

Before Me

I always wondered, what it would be like-
to be the first in someone's life.
To be the one who can think upright-
I just laugh at my own plight.

There is always something or someone before me
Money, work or she.
What did I think & what did I do?
Thinking all these makes me blue.

What holds in future-
I do not know.
But it won't be for me-
I can tell it in a blow.

It scares me-
It makes me sad.
But that is what I got into;
knowing all that!!

Tuesday, 12 March 2019

The Past comes Knocking!


When the past came knocking-
I closed the door. 
For I want it to be over-
and not deal with it anymore. 


You were a part of it;
You were all there.
But no one came to me-
Holding me to bear.


I cannot let it on-
I cannot let it go.
When the last came knocking-
I just closed the door!

Wednesday, 2 January 2019

Forbidden Love

I stood there-
With my heart in hand.
Watching him-
Coming down the stairs;
I stood still,
I cannot move.
Taking a step forward- 
Is not something I could.

Our eyes meet, 
And so did we, 
Taking a step forward-
I leap into thee. 
Only to realise-
with a heavy heart,
To step back-
One or Two.

For this is a forbidden love-

And will never come true!

Friday, 30 November 2018

In Silent Nights

In silent nights, my tear it rolls-
Piercing through my heart,
unknown from the world,
Like river it flows.

Sometimes I feel it, yet sometimes I don't-
But in silent nights, my tear it rolls.

What if I was unknown?
What if you were unknown?
Life put us together, yet I am alone.

Sometimes I feel it, yet sometimes I don't-
But in silent nights, my tear it rolls.

I want to die, I want to end-
but then there is my little angel
Bringing hope and love again.

Sometimes I feel it, yet sometimes I don't-
But in silent nights, my tear it rolls.

Each day passes and I miss you more
But there lies no hope anymore- 
I am not able to endure 

Sometimes I feel it, yet sometimes I don't-
But in silent nights, my tear it rolls.

I feel empt, I feel lost
Trapped in a wooden box...
Waking up yet another day,
Wishing it to be the end.

Sometimes I feel it, yet sometimes I don't-
But in silent nights, my tear it rolls.

I have fought battles unknown
Then I was not meant for the dawn-
I feel alone, I can't stand-
Can someone please hold my hand?

In silent nights, my tear it rolls.....




Wednesday, 31 October 2018

Fading!


You were just here, 
making my heart glow. 
But now-
I get a blow.

You are fading away,
taking all the hopes.
And now-
I stand alone at the bay.

Wishing you could be here,
the thought of you gone, 
Rips me and my heart bare.

Tuesday, 9 October 2018

Fade Away



It is strange how feelings fade

and we look for aid.
It is nothing that I can do
And nothing that you can do
But the feelings simply fade.

Words mark their territory-
in the heart and brain, 
Becoming predatory-
It starts to give you pain.

Silence becomes crucial,
Actions become numb, 
Words are just conveyed-
and the feelings start to fade.


Monday, 13 August 2018

The Fall


I asked you when do you leave 
You tell me you already got the ticket.
Shocked and surprised I tell you thus 
“ When were you going to tell me this! “
You find it offending knowing not why
You didn’t see the reason behind. 

I ask as I miss you so 
Need to know how many days more. 
You think I have other intentions, and hence 
You came up with a great plan!!!! 

Planned well you did indeed,
Every tale spoken like a priest.
Thinking how it all fits,
I ask you to give me a treat.

Your castle tumbled down your knees-
Yet proudly you quote my words
“ When were you going to tell me this”
Alarmed and shocked I took it all
In silence I did stand tall-

Yet you will not know where was the fall........

Tuesday, 10 July 2018

Promise

Over and over..
You gave me your words.
Making me believe that
it will be the end.

But I failed in my believe,and
You failed in your colloquy.
Causing pain to both-
You and Me

I look into your eyes and
I see no trust
How do I go ahead from thus

You make me scare for the future;
You make me question our life.
Make me free from this,
Keep the Promise you give!



Wednesday, 3 January 2018

Forgive

I feel free, nothing more it can be.
I let it go and now I feel like a bee-
humming around the flowers, dancing around the pollen,
My spirit and myself are yet to be fallen.

It was not easy,
It came with a lot of pain.
But to forgive is not to forget,
Its just being a better self.

I cried myself to sleep-
and suffered all by self.
But then came a realisation-
Why should I suffocate?

I let it go and forgave the thing,
It made me feel light and thin.
I glowed with pleasure
and was made Wiser.
To forgive is to be free and,
not to forget is a plea.

Sunday, 22 October 2017

Broken Trust

Trust is like glass, smooth and clear
But once there is a crack, you need to fear.
You gave me all reasons to believe,
Again to trust and start to live.

We were in love-
and writing our vows.
But then I saw what was hidden-
Contacting your past and temptation which should have been got ridden.

It broke my trust like a piece of glass
shattered to pieces like powdered dust...
Now there is a burden on my chest sitting like a mass.
Ripping my senses and heart apart.


I feel the pain each passing moment
crawling up to my brain.
Slowly paralyzing my body,
But the pain still remain.

Now I feel no more,
I feel dead as a whole.
Only the pain lingers for sometime.
What have you done when our love was at its prime!!

Before Me

I always wondered, what it would be like- to be the first in someone's life. To be the one who can think upright- I just laugh at my ...