Before Me

I always wondered, what it would be like-
to be the first in someone's life.
To be the one who can think upright-
I just laugh at my own plight.

There is always something or someone before me
Money, work or she.
What did I think & what did I do?
Thinking all these makes me blue.

What holds in future-
I do not know.
But it won't be for me-
I can tell it in a blow.

It scares me-
It makes me sad.
But that is what I got into;
knowing all that!!

The Past comes Knocking!

When the past came knocking-
I closed the door. 
For I want it to be over-
and not deal with it anymore. 


You were a part of it;
You were all there.
But no one came to me-
Holding me to bear.


I cannot let it on-
I cannot let it go.
When the last came knocking-
I just closed the door!